Sunday, May 20, 2007

Haydn's Farewell Symphony


"Be good and industrious, and serve God continually."

Franz Joseph Haydn (1732-1809)



I played Haydn's Farewell Symphony recently and began thinking of the first time it was performed (a dangerous thing to do when you're trying to transpose). When the piece was originally played, it was conducted by Haydn himself, wearing a powdered wig (part of his contract). His musicians (men only, in those days) performed standing up, playing by candlelight.

Haydn was employed for nearly thirty years by Prince Esterhazy, a very rich and influential Hungarian. Haydn and his chamber group went with Esterhazy to his summer palace annually, in order to entertain the prince. In the summer of 1772, Esterhazy kept his musicians beyond the original agreed upon date. The musicians missed their families and wanted desperately to return home, so Haydn composed his Symphony #45 The Farewell with a not so subtle hint. The fourth movement calls for each musician to play a little farewell melody, snuff out his candle, gather his score and instrument, and walk off the floor. Prince Esterhazy's chamber orchestra slowly dwindles until only two violins are left. The prince got the message, and the very next day, finally ordered his musicians to return home.

During Haydn's time, music belonged chiefly to the nobility and there was little in the way of public concerts. Compare that to our lives now. We have access to the greatest of classical music via radio, CDs, and concerts. Here I was, a woman (wearing pants!), playing a piece that premiered 235 years ago. Our audience was populated by "common" people who were able to attend for free (sponsored by a church and funded, in part, from tax monies for the arts). It felt quite strange when it came my time to leave the stage. But, as I thought back to my counterpart who did so for the first time in 1772, I enjoyed my little connection to history.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

"All Creatures of Our God and King"


We sang this as our recessional hymn this morning. I had to leave out two verses, due to my tears; I seemed to have a lot of them today.

Thank you, Lord, for a peaceful and loving Mother's Day with my two precious children and my own mother. Thank you, Lord, for the prayers of loving friends and family which have given me a much needed respite this weekend.

(Hymn lyrics by St. Francis of Assisi and harmony by Ralph Vaughan Williams)


"All Creatures of Our God and King"

All creatures of our God and King
Lift up your voice and with us sing
Alleluia! Alleluia!
Thou burning sun with golden beam,
Thou silver moon with softer gleam!

Refrain

O praise Him! O praise Him!
Alleluia! Alleluia! Alleluia!

Thou rushing wind that art so strong
Ye clouds that sail in Heaven along,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Thou rising moon, in praise rejoice,
Ye lights of evening, find a voice!

Refrain

Thou flowing water, pure and clear,
Make music for thy Lord to hear,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Thou fire so masterful and bright,
That givest man both warmth and light.

Refrain

Dear mother earth, who day by day
Unfoldest blessings on our way,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
The flowers and fruits that in thee grow,
Let them His glory also show.

Refrain

And all ye men of tender heart,
Forgiving others, take your part,
O sing ye! Alleluia!
Ye who long pain and sorrow bear,
Praise God and on Him cast your care!

Refrain

And thou most kind and gentle Death,
Waiting to hush our latest breath,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Thou leadest home the child of God,
And Christ our Lord the way hath trod.

Refrain

Let all things their Creator bless,
And worship Him in humbleness,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Praise, praise the Father, praise the Son,
And praise the Spirit, Three in One!

Refrain

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Sorta Like Solomon


I feel a little like Solomon, who, when he asked for wisdom, was given riches and honor as well.

In the morning I usually pray that we'll have a good day. Today, I prayed that we would just have a good Math lesson. God gave us not only a good Math lesson, but an entire good day with our daughter!

Praise God for His glorious mercy and blessing!

Please give us wisdom, strength, and patience for another Math lesson!

Monday, May 07, 2007

Serenity


Serenity. Peace. Calm. Goals that have been eluding us lately.

Our daughter continues to struggle with adoption issues. She can't figure out why her birthmother would "give her away" (her words).

Anger. Sadness. Confusion. These are very real parts of our daughter's days.

I pray without ceasing. "God, give me strength. Give me patience. Give me wisdom!"

I shared the Serenity Prayer with our daughter. I'm realizing that it applies to me, too.

The Serenity Prayer
by Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)
Complete, Unabridged, Original Version.

God, give us grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

Amen.


(Note: photo comes from Korea; where both of our children are from)

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Why Blog?


I often ask myself this question. I first started this blog when we were looking for a new church home. Tired of the steady diet of praise songs, I was desperate to sing real hymns. My very first post was a hymn. Now my blog has become mostly a journal for myself, I suppose.

But tonight it helped our daughter to fall asleep. She's been going through some rough times lately. She has a lot of confusion about how her birthmother fits into her history, and right now most of her thinking comes out as anger. Tonight she was questioning God's love for her, so I listed some of the prayers He's answered. There was one I was trying to recall, and then I remembered that I had blogged about it, so I showed the entry to our daughter. She loved reading about herself, and her memory was jogged about the particular answer to prayer. Instead of anger, her face now shone with contentment and peace.

My lame scratching out of these posts has helped her to see God's care for her. If that's all my blog is ever good for, it's been worth it!

(Note about the picture above. I found it when I did a search for pictures about prayer. Since it looks almost like the person could be typing at a computer, too, I thought it was appropriate on both counts.)

Sunday, April 29, 2007

"The King of Love"


We were joined in church today by three dear friends from our old church. One of the hymns today was this one. I love the melody, an ancient Irish tune. (I seem to be a sucker for anything from the Emerald Isle.)

Thank you, Lord, for the little foretaste of heaven, where we will sing praises to you with our brothers and sisters in the faith.


"The King of Love My Shepherd Is"

The King of love my Shepherd is,
Whose goodness faileth never,
I nothing lack if I am His
And He is mine forever.

Where streams of living water flow
My ransomed soul He leadeth,
And where the verdant pastures grow,
With food celestial feedeth.

Perverse and foolish oft I strayed,
But yet in love He sought me,
And on His shoulder gently laid,
And home, rejoicing, brought me.

In death’s dark vale I fear no ill
With Thee, dear Lord, beside me;
Thy rod and staff my comfort still,
Thy cross before to guide me.

Thou spread’st a table in my sight;
Thy unction grace bestoweth;
And O what transport of delight
From Thy pure chalice floweth!

And so through all the length of days
Thy goodness faileth never;
Good Shepherd, may I sing Thy praise
Within Thy house forever.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

"What Is That To You?"


Sunday's Gospel reading was from John 21; where Jesus appears to His disciples while they are fishing and later reinstates Simon Peter. Simon Peter, seeing John, asks, "Lord, what about him?"

Jesus answers, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow Me."

These words of Jesus became very real to me many years ago when we struggled with infertility. I saw friends and family all around us getting pregnant, while we weren't. I often asked God why we couldn't we get pregnant, too. When I read these words in John 21, I could picture Him saying, "If I want her to have 10 children, what is that to you? You must follow Me."

I often forget that the same sentiment applies to me today. Sometimes I wish I had more stylish clothes, a newer car, a nicer house, vacations, fewer bills, family members who were believers, etc.

It doesn't matter what things I wish I had or what trials I am experiencing.

It all boils down to this: I am to follow my Lord, Jesus Christ.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Alleluia, Sing to Jesus







This was our recessional hymn today. It has deep spiritual truths which are found in so many of the old hymns. Probably most remembered for writing the words to "What Child Is This?" William C. Dix penned the words to this hymn in 1867.








"Alleluia! Sing to Jesus!"
Alleluia! sing to Jesus! His the scepter, His the throne.
Alleluia! His the triumph, His the victory alone.
Hark! the songs of peaceful Zion thunder like a mighty flood.
Jesus out of every nation has redeemed us by His blood.

Alleluia! not as orphans are we left in sorrow now;
Alleluia! He is near us, faith believes, nor questions how;
Though the cloud from sight received Him when the forty days were o’er
Shall our hearts forget His promise, “I am with you evermore”?

Alleluia! bread of angels, Thou on earth our food, our stay;
Alleluia! here the sinful flee to Thee from day to day:
Intercessor, Friend of sinners, Earth’s Redeemer, plead for me,
Where the songs of all the sinless sweep across the crystal sea.

Alleluia! King eternal, Thee the Lord of lords we own;
Alleluia! born of Mary, Earth Thy footstool, Heav’n Thy throne:
Thou within the veil hast entered, robed in flesh our great High Priest;
Thou on earth both priest and victim in the Eucharistic feast.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

A Small Victory in the Fight for Life



Thank you to U.S. Supreme Court Justices Kennedy, Roberts, Alito, Thomas, and Scalia who voted with the majority to uphold the current ban on partial birth abortions. Praise God!

Shame on Eve Gartner of Planned Parenthood who said, "This ruling flies in the face of 30 years of Supreme Court precedent and the best interest of women's health and safety." Of course, she fails to admit that the best interest and safety of females doesn't count if they're still in the womb.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Ruby Red Glass



At the risk of sounding like I'm promoting the famous expensive coffee shop you find all over America...

I hadn't been in one for about a year, but I found myself there on Sunday afternoon while waiting for my son to finish a Scout activity. I perchanced to read this very interesting quote on my tea cup:





"I don't know if something can be too colorful. Color is one of the great properties of glass and is more intense in glass than any other material. Imagine entering Chartres Cathedral and looking up at the rose window: you can see a one-inch square of ruby red glass from 300 feet away."

Dale Chihuly
Artist and glassblower



When you are inside a church, the intensity of the sun illumines those small pieces of colored glass in the windows, just as the Son illumines the Father for us.

Conversely, when it is dark outside and you are looking INTO a church that is lit up, you can see the colorful stained glass windows from your vantage point. We need to be like that beautiful window. Lit from within by our Lord, and laying open the truth to those in darkness.

(photo of the rose window at Chartres Cathedral, France)

Thursday, April 12, 2007

1 + 1 + 1 = ???


A family member stopped by today and handed me three articles from the newspaper. Judging from past conversations, I think I know the not so subtle implications.

It wasn't quite what I had in mind during my prayers this week for some encouragement.


#1 Protective Parents Not Preparing Kids

#2 To Prof, Saxon Math Doesn't Add Up to Much
[We use Saxon Math.]

#3 Virtual Debate: Online Education, Funding in Lawmakers' Spotlight
[We don't use any public school based online education.]

Sunday, April 08, 2007

"Come Ye Faithful"


My husband and I played in a small chamber group at this church this morning. Having never been to an Orthodox church before, it was an interesting place to spend Easter.

We were there to play the Mozart Sparrow Mass and other music, but I enjoyed being able to join in with singing this wonderful hymn.

Below are the first two verses of the hymn. Go here for all five verses. [Note: The melody we sang today was the first of the alternate melodies listed, the Ave Virgo Virginum (1544) which is much better than the Sullivan (1872) melody the website uses.]



"Come Ye Faithful"

Come, ye faithful, raise the strain of triumphant gladness;
God hath brought forth Israel into joy from sadness;
Loosed from Pharaoh’s bitter yoke Jacob’s sons and daughters,
Led them with unmoistened foot through the Red Sea waters.

’Tis the spring of souls today; Christ has burst His prison,
And from three days’ sleep in death as a sun hath risen;
All the winter of our sins, long and dark, is flying
From His light, to Whom we give laud and praise undying.

Friday, April 06, 2007

Good Friday




Now there stood by the cross of Jesus His mother, and His mother's sister, Mary the wife of Cleophas, and Mary Magdalene. When Jesus therefore saw His mother, and the disciple standing by, whom He loved, He saith unto His mother, "Woman, behold thy son!" Then saith He to the disciple, "Behold thy mother!" And from that hour that disciple took her unto his own home.

After this, Jesus knowing that all things were now accomplished, that the scripture might be fulfilled, saith, "I thirst."

Now there was set a vessel full of vinegar; and they filled a sponge with vinegar, and put it upon hyssop, and put it to his mouth.

When Jesus therefore had received the vinegar, he said, "It is finished," and he bowed his head, and gave up the ghost.

John 19: 25-30 (KJV)

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

He Fills the Void




I am drained.



This evening I held my daughter, rocking her in my lap, while she cried, "I want my mommy."



She didn't mean me.



She meant her birth mother. Lately, she feels abandoned by her birth mother. Confused over why this young woman would place her for adoption.

I opened my Bible to show my daughter all the verses I've highlighted that apply to adoption. They are all over the place. God constantly tells us, when He adopts us into His family, we are full heirs. He fills the void in our hearts.

Dear Lord, help my daughter see the truth that we love her totally. That You love her totally. Heal her hurts. Fill the void in her soul. Give me strength. Give me patience. Show her your presence.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Just for fun..My New Title

Thanks to Lanier at laniersbooks, I now have a new title, and I'll be expecting you to use it from now on!

My Peculiar Aristocratic Title is:
Her Exalted Highness Duchess Deborah the Wholesome of Peevish St Victor
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The honorable wife of:


Venerable Lord Steven the Charitable of Chalmondley St Peasoup


The much adored mother of:


Very Sir Lord Brendan the Ceaseless of Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch



Milady the Most Honourable Anna the Paragon of Bampton Underhoop